ani

Shut-down, Delusions, and Me
2006-10-11 @ 11:32 p.m.

There are too many things to feel. I don't have the energy. I'm shutting down. Going through the motions.
I think Tigger is taking it personally. I can't choose to feel some things though and not others. I'm not getting into any more friendships I think are real. I'm done with it.
This has happened so many times. No one's different, no matter whether they think they are or not. I actually don't think it has anything to do with who the other person is. It's me. I press buttons, push people away. I can't have close friends. It's just not going to happen. I really need to stop lying to myself.